Where Oh Where Did My Regulated Nervous System Go?
I don’t mean to brag, but I’m really good at Spring.
That’s what I thought yesterday as I lounged in my hammock after dinner (picture for proof)
But today it has been a full day of tending to my dysregulated nervous system. In February I told my friend that having a regulated nervous system was my new non negotiable. I had no idea what a full time job it would be to keep my very delicate system from fraying. I don’t know what caused me to ‘go off the rails’ if you will. Sometimes it can happen if I walk into a crowded grocery store or if I’m engaging with someone negative, or if there are ANY loud noises within earshot (I 100% would do well at an Ashram).
I went back to acupuncture today and there was a new acupuncturist covering for ole’ faithful. Her voice was so soft and her demeanor so calm, that I was two needles away from asking if she could just, I don’t know, hold me?
Thankfully that’s what my weighted blanket is for, which brings us to now. The dogs and I just returned from a walk along the lake trail and I’m settled in to work on my writing, because as I walked, I remembered that on days when I feel off and don’t know what to do, writing is never the wrong answer.
So here we are.
I’m settled in for the summer at my friends in North Carolina. The fog of winter has lifted (can someone please reach out to me in October and remind me to prepare for winter by booking a 5 month housesitting gig somewhere tropical?). I think I mentioned in one of my last letters that I had clarity around my book, which got my excited. One thing led to another and I’m going to a writer’s conference in Vermont this August, so now the ending of the books needs to exist not just in my head, but also on the page.
Please send help.
I started this book in grad school and thought it died along with my computer and vision for my future in 2022. But hope springs eternal as the saying goes and I have some direction.
I don’t want to spoil the introduction to the book, but I will say that I remember at age 10 thinking that someday I would write a book. I remember when friends would say they always knew they wanted to be a mom, I would think, “All I have ever wanted is to write a book.” The wanting to be a mom part would come later, as it turns out, but again no spoilers. I really want you to read my book.
Well, that’s all I have to say about that.
I do want to let you know that I had this idea to offer a free generative writing session called PROMPT-A-PALOOZA. We will hop on zoom and get right into it for 90 minutes. If you have never taken my workshops but are curious or you have taken my workshops and need a little fire under you for your writing practice, then I hope you will come join me and others for this little firecracker session. It’s FREE and I will do my best to make it FUN.
You can register for that HERE