Dear Megan,
You worry too much. How much is too much? Any amount of worry, really. The fruit of a spiritual life is peace, but it seems you are lacking in that at times. Why?
Why don’t you trust that life will always take care of you? Why don’t you trust that you don’t have to control every little microcosm in the Universe in order for life to work.
Perhaps you should study the laws of the Universe.
Let go. Not just a little. Let go a lot.
How do you do this?