Before I kick off the penultimate post to this challenge, I first wanted to share about an IN-PERSON one day retreat I am hosting in North Carolina. I’ve been feeling the call to hose an in-person retreat for a while now and NOW is the time (well, May is the exact time). This retreat is a sweet little combo of yoga, guided meditation, generative writing, and community. It’s a chance for you to drop into the present moment through healing modalities and to drop deeper into what wants to be expressed through you. All that’s needed is a willingness to show up, be curious, and be good to yourself.
The morning will start with a yoga class and from there we will move into the generative writing and guided meditation. Lunch & refreshments are included. This retreat takes place at a private residence in Davison, NC (the sweetest town that ever was, but I am biased). If you are in or around the area and interested in joining, please email Megan.okkerse@gmail.com to register.
Dear Megan,
Just now on your walk you had epiphany about the book you started in grad school but have not touched since the death of your computer a few years ago. FOLLOW THE EPIPHANY.
Write until your fingers bleed. The thing is, you have always felt this deep knowing that you would write a book one day and the dissatisfaction you have at times felt in your life is because you are avoiding the thing that while it would take some heavy lifting, long nights, and rough drafts- would actually bring you the most satisfaction.
Life happens right on time but now always in the timing you had in mind.
You already know what to do. So, as much is it is second nature for you to shop your decisions with the people in your life, save your energy and just get to work.
There are so many ways to waste energy. And why do people waste energy?
A lot of times it is unrecognized fear. In your case, you have a fear of success. Your nervous system has not been able to fathom what it would be like for you to actually finish this book and let it exist in the world. So you have created some very lovely distractions, most of which whose names begin with a J, are born in the month of September, and all of whom play the guitar.
You have heard it said that everything you need is inside of you not outside of you and had you not been so busy running, you might have gotten it sooner, but it seems that just now in this moment you are understanding that what you have been running from is…YOURSELF.
Do not fear what will happen if you finish this book. Fear the discontent you will be left to live with if you don’t allow yourself to.
Now, get to work.
Yes! Stop talking about it, thinking about it, planning about it. DO IT!!!! I say this with love and understanding as I totally get the “unrecognized fear” although is it really unrecognized? For me it’s usually been in the back of my mind but I excel at having a million other things to do instead! So write it!